Wednesday, July 24, 2013

My Persian Slave Boy Love Affair, Continued....


April 26th, 2013

More and more days go by, and on the 6th night of my Slave Boy having no release, he sleeps next to me, locked, in my bed…I was thinking that I would let him get off that night, but instead he just pleasured my pussy with his mouth, giving me a Euphoric writhing release. There’s something special about him, his dark skin, innocent yet deep eyes, and mischievous smile that kills me every time. He glows in his adoration of me and is genuine in his service. Nothing pleases me more, and nothing is more repulsive than a completely selfish submissive. I have found the right one for me; a relationship that is easy, flows, and most importantly a Slave I am attracted to and can please my desires. I adore him, his humor, his deep voice, his Iranian Coyote accent, the way he goes out to his car and comes back into my apartment in a new suit, glowing always in his eyes just to see me.

I tell him my fantasy that night before going to bed; that if I’m going to take his orgasm, for the first time since he's been locked in chastity, then I am going to have it by riding his cock. This was a huge step for me, in admitting that I WANTED him; all of him. He lays limp beside me, his feelings of submission so intense that his body is no longer his own; he is locked in a constant state of desire, a desire so piercing, that the slightest touch from me sets a fire inside of him. 

We awaken in the morning, his cock bulging out of his chastity device, his voice begging me to unlock him. I enjoy taking the cage off slowly, as to torment him more, and creating a sweet release once it's off. I torture him, slap his hard cock, and spit on it, his mouth; his dark eyes roll back in his head; he is completely mine. His tongue finds my yearning pussy, and pleasures me for quite some time, I am a puddle of water, dripping for his cock. It is time for me to merge with my Slave, to take him, my prey, completely for my pleasure. This is always how I do it from then on out. Just to ad an extra element of submission I cuff him to the bed, so that when he feels the natural urge to turn me over and be on top he can't; he must stay on the bottom. 

The feeling of him is something I will never forget; his cock the perfect size of fullness, but not too hard as to be like ice; he is a warm fire inside of me, and I have mini explosions before an entire volcano of energy explodes from the depths of my being. He makes me cum harder than I ever have before, a dripping wet explosion, my body can hardly contain the pleasure. 

We lay in bed for hours that day, him sprawled across my bed, one armed tied down in restraint, his body an empty vessel of clay. My Coyote lays his head down to rest; I have extended the erotic build up for 6 days, and he finally gets his release. We are happy and complete for now; like two young lovers without a care in the world. 


SUNDAY APRIL 28th

I’m working across town in Hollywood at my friend’s studio apartment. But I hate time away from my slave boy, who’s face lights up whenever he sees me, who tells me he worships the ground that I step on, who would rather lick the bottoms of my feet than have an orgasm (another bluff I’ve called) but who will undeniably melt once he’s in my presence.


His life is falling apart; his Porche Cayenne barely driveable and he has to borrow his friend’s car to drive across town to see me. It's only been two days since he hasn't had an orgasm, but he is already weak and begging at my feet to come. I’m needing a serious work break, so I invite him into my presence. After coming inside and resting his head on my lap like a small pup I pet him, and as I sit in a chair overlooking the Hollywood hills on this perfect Spring evening, he kisses me, his body pressed up against mine, and the rush overflows my body; a kinetic connection, my heart open wide; I am in Euphoria. I moan, vibrate, drunk on his admiration and devotion. I want him, and I want him now.

Like two giddy lovers, I take his hand and lead him to the parking lot to his friend’s new mercededes with beige leather seats which still have that new car smell. Slave boy, still in Chastity to me, locked up for two days is yearning to get out. The only way I can have satisfaction from his cock is to release him. But I would never let him out without teasing him first.

Whining, moaning, he opens his mouth and starts talking, making offers he can’t keep.

“Oh Mistress if you gave me the choice to give you an Orgasm, or have one, which one do you think I would choose.?”

“I don’t know darling, why don’t you choose…have an orgasm or give me one.”

“Oh Mistress, I would do anything for you, I would trade my Orgasm for yours…Maybe you’ll keep me locked up in this thing for 6 months!” Lengthening his time in Chastity keeps this Slave Boy very excited. I don’t think I would want to deal with his absolute inability to function if I kept him in chastity for 6 months. He would become a crying infant. I still adore his personality and must restore it every once in a while. Perhaps I’m too compassionate of a Domme.

I allow him to play this game of pleasing me, and slowly I unlock him. By the time I pull the casing off his dick, he is fully erect, bulging out of it. I tease him some more with my hand lightly caressing his smooth and glorious member, and he trembles, shakes and begs to lick my pussy. I’m getting so hot, and enjoy the tease as well. He climbs over the seat and squeezes into what small space he has in front of my lap. I enjoy the awkwardness is on his part, and he must once again sacrifice his comfort for my pleasure. We kiss like lovers, our saliva spiraling around our tongues, I want to suck him into my being entirely; isn’t that when love making is the best; when you want to inhale your lover?

Slave Boy proceeds to please me with his tongue, making my pussy so juicy, red, and enlarged, I feel all my blood rushing to my sweet spot. Nothing is better in my mind then when the very landscape, the canvas of your art morphs before your very eyes; my pussy, his object of adoration becomes of masterpiece composition of pulsating pleasure, an orgiastic Van Gough inside of me. My every fiber responds to every nuance of his desperate tongue pleasing me while I call him my little bitch.  I have to enjoy a little humiliation every once in awhile.

Now I need his cock; he’s not completely well-trained yet, still driven by his desire, and I must break him in more for he tries to stick his dick in me too soon. I proceed to make him back off and tease me with the tip; just gliding around my wet juices, surfing the surface, not able to dive in. I almost come over and over again but I don’t I want to build it, up, make my pussy literally pull him inside of me.

I indulge in our little fantasy of him just being there for my pleasure; he rides me, our bodies swirling together, melding into one, until…. That pinnacle moment when I absolutely explode from all of his pent up frustration channeled into me; so much more potent than a “regular” interaction. I do not allow him the same luxury of sweet release.

We finish our love dance, and remininsce in the car for 30 more minutes, just talking, being silly, holding hands, cuddling as much as we can in a car. He has to go, even though he wants to sleep next to me, on the floor even, anything to be close to me.

“Mistress, would you please leave your shoes outside your door so that I can worship them?”

I’m delighted by the fact of him sneaking by the apartment door and bowing down just to worship my shoes.

I comply with my slave’s request and I tell him not to touch his cock. I’m leaving him unlocked for the night, and want to test his ability of self control.

I fall asleep in my friend's bed, and apparently Coyote slept in the parking lot in his friend's car. 

“Good morning Mistress…. I love watching you scream in pleasure….hope you’re having a lovely day…

Ok fair enough but here comes the confession from my weak Slave boy.

“BTW u left the lock shut but You have the key my Goddess that means I can not be locked up, n also I used the chance You gave me, worshipping your sandals with Your beautiful footprint perfectly formed on it….it was risky but I wanted it…. I hope my Mistress is not disappointed that I came w/o Your permission  or presence although Your sandals were there to witness….Muahhhh!”

He 
came 
on 
my 
shoes. 

I've actually never met a person that was so turned on by the dirty imprint of my feet on the bottom of my shoes. But today is the day a man found my filthy shoes so erotic, he came to the thought of my feet. 

“Did you notice last night how frantically n excited I was bowing in the middle of the hallway facing your shoes, cock in hand and inhaling the oh so arousing smell of your perfect feet left on the sexy sandals hoping nobody sees me while trying to reach the so wanted orgasm ASAP yet wishing you’d open the door to tell me how to do it or make it stop….”

At first I had feelings of upset that my Coyote misbehaved and touched his cock without permission by me. And there's another part of me that finds his nature endearing. I'm sure I yelled at him for it, but the other part of me is completely turned on by the fact that his cum couldn't help but come out to the thought of my sandals. 

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Planning A Date... A Date to Be Submissive

Preparing myself to Surrender, to Let Go, to Be in Service to his highest Erotic Self,

And

Received

These Instructions;

Block Out Saturday night

We will need

Libations and mood enhances of Choice

Darkness

Multiple locations

Lube

Liquid latex

Several Showers

Photographs of your lost vulnerable Self

Get groomed down there

And an Enema

Before we See Each Other


I am conjuring up the Ways to Be a good Yet Naughty Submissive so I also get Punished ...


Ideas ?
 . 

Monday, July 22, 2013

MAY THE WAVES TAKE THE LAST EXHALE


AS I LAY MY HEAD DOWN TO REST LAST NIGHT, AFTER A WEEK-LONG BATTLE WITH A BRONCHIAL INFECTION, UNABLE TO REALLY BREATHE OR RELAX, MY HEAD IN FEVERISH CONFUSED CLOUDS….


I FINALLY TOOK A DEEP BREATH, I INHALED FULLY,

AND AS I EXHALED, I AFFIRMED TO MYSELF THAT

“MY MAN IS OUT THERE AND IT IS NOT HIM.”

YOU KNOW THE “HIM”, THE ONE I HAD A PERFECT LOVE STORY WITH, THE HIM THAT BROKE ME IN WAYS I DIDN’T KNOW I COULD BE BROKEN.

I HAVE FINALLY REALIZED THAT HE IS FAR MORE BROKEN THAN ME, AND HE HAS NO CAPABILITY TO NOT BREAK EVERYTHING HE COMES INTO CONTACT WITH.

WE’VE BEEN IN CONTACT, MOSTLY BECAUSE HE HAD THE DESIRE TO GO TO A FESTIVAL TOGETHER, SO I GOT HIM A TICKET, THINKING OH, WE ARE GOING TO HAVE THIS FUN WEEKEND TOGETHER. WELL HE STARTED TO PULL OUT THE DAY BEFORE THE FESTIVAL, AND I SOLD HIS TICKET, BECAUSE I CAN’T STAND HIS WISHY WASHY BULLSHIT. HE COULD FIND TIME TO CALL ME EVERY DAY LEADING UP TO THE FESTIVAL, AND SINCE THEN I’VE GOTTEN NOTHING BUT; SILENCE;

HE WILL SPEAK TO ME WHEN HE WANTS SOMETHING FROM ME, AND IGNORE ME WHEN HE DOESN’T.

SOMEHOW WE ARE STILL KARMICALLY TIED TOGETHER, FOR AFTER A WEEK OF IGNORING EACH OTHER, WE ALMOST LITERALLY WALK INTO ONE ANOTHER AT A CAFÉ IN MALIBU; 45 MIN AWAY FROM MY HOUSE, AN HOUR AT LEAST AWAY FROM HIS, AND I AM WALKING OUTSIDE OF THE CAFÉ DOOR AS HE IS WALKING IN; OUR EYES MEET IN AN AWKWARD HELLO, AND AS USUAL, HE’S STAND-OFFISH, BUT CORDIAL. I HUG HIM NONETHELESS BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW MUCH OF AN ASSHOLE HE IS I KNOW HE STILL NEEDS LOVE; YELLING AT HIM IS GOING TO ACCOMPLISH NOTHING.

HE GRABS HIS COFFEE, WE SIT DOWN TO TALK, SMALL TALK. I SAY NOTHING ABOUT HOW MUCH HIS ACTIONS ARE TOTAL BULLSHIT; BUT IVE KNOWN THIS FOR THE LAST YEAR; HIS CHARMS ARE WEARING THIN, HIS FACE IS GETTING HARDENED, HIS SKIN EVEN WHITER THAN I REMEMBER, HIS SMILE ALMOST COMPLETELY ERASED.

HE HAD JUST COME FROM SURFING, FOR HOURS IN THE COLD WATER ON THIS OVERCAST JULY DAY IN CALIFORNIA; MY BUNNY, JUST A SHELL OF HIS PAST SELF THAT I WAS SO IN LOVE WITH.

HE MAKES SLY COMMENTS, SLIGHTLY PUTTING ME DOWN IN ORDER TO MAKE HIMSELF FEEL BETTER; HE HAS BEEN COMPLETLEY UNSUCCESSFUL AT BREAKING INTO HOLLYWOOD, SIGNING CONTRACTS WITH STUDIOS, AND THEM NOT GIVING HIM PROPER FUNDING TO FILM THE MOVIE, SO NOW HE OWES INVESTORS MILLIONS OF DOLLARS FROM A FILM THAT WAS NEVER EVEN MADE. HIS HEELS HAVE DIGGED DEEP INTO DEBT, HIS ONCE HOPEFUL FACE THAT I MET ON THAT FATEFUL DAY IN JUNE, HIS COCKY STANCE THAT SO SEDUCTLY DRAWS YOU NEAR IS GONE; HE IS A CYNCICLE COLD SHELL IMPRESSION OF HIMSELF.

HE’S TRULY APOLOGIZED TO ME ONCE; FOR ALL THE BULLSHIT HE PUT ME THROUGH; FOR NOT BEING THE MAN THAT HE THOUGHT HE COULD BE; FOR LEADING ME THROUGH AN ENDLESS LABRYNTH OF EMPTY PROMISSES; OF HOPEFUL LOVE THAT MAYBE ONE DAY PULL THROUGH.

ALL OF THAT HOPE HAS FADED, AND NOW ALL WE HAVE LEFT IS THIS EMPTY CONVERSATION; I TELL HIM ABOUT MY EXPERIENCE AT LIGHTNING IN A BOTTLE; HE HAS SELECTIVE LISTENING, ALWAYS LOOKING FOR A WAY TO JUDGE, TO PICK APART, TO INVALIDATE MY EXPERIENCE, MY MAGICK, MY MAJESTY. I AM A QUEEN, AND IF HE WAS ONCE MY KING, HE HAS FALLEN FROM GRACE.

YES I LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY, AND I HAVE TOLD HIM SO; THAT I WILL LOVE HIM ON HIS GRUMPY ASS DEATH BED, STILL WISH HIM BEAUTY, COMPASSSION AND GRACE, TO NO RESPONSE. NOT EVEN A “THANK YOU HAHA,” THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME DESPITE THE FACT THAT I HAVE TREATED YOU LIKE COMPLETE SHIT, DISREGUARDED YOUR DESIRE TO HELP ME IN ANY WAY, AND I’LL CALL YOU THE NEXT TIME I NEED SOMETHING FROM YOU, OTHERWISE I WILL JUST IGNORE YOUR VERY EXISTANCE.

THROUGHOUT ALL OF THIS TIME TOGETHER, HE KEPT ME AROUND TO BE HIS FRIEND. I CAN’T EVEN BE THAT ANYMORE. FRIENDS HAVE THE DECENY TO ASK, EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE, “IS THERE ANYTHING THAT I CAN DO FOR YOU?’ THEY EXTEND THEIR CONSCIENCE, JUST FOR A MOMENT OUTSIDE OF THEMSELVES, AND THINK OF OTHERS. HE SEEMS COMPLETELY INCAPABLE OF THINKING OUTSIDE OF HIS IMMEDIATE GRATIFICATION; NOT ONCE HAS HE REACHED OUT AND EXTENDED HIS GENEROSITY TO SEE HOW HE COULD HELP ME.

AND THROUGHOUT ALL OF THIS TIME, I HAVE NOT CHOSEN TO CLOSE MY HEART, BUT TO OPEN IT TO THE UNIVERSE, TO EXTEND MYSELF TO GENEROSITY, TO NOT HATE, BUT CONTINUE TO LOVE. MAYBE THIS WAS NEVER LOVE TO BEGIN WITH, MAYBE IT WAS ALL JUST SOME PRETENSE OF LOVE, OF MANIPULATING THE SITUATION ALWAYS TO HIS FAVOR, AND WHEN HE HAS NO USE FOR ME ANYMORE, HE CAN SO EASILY DISPOSE OF WHAT HE ONCE CARED ABOUT, WITHOUT SO MUCH AS A GOOD-BYE.

I TOOK A DEEP BREATH LAST NIGHT, AND AS I EXHALED, I SAID TO MYSELF,

MY MAN IS OUT THERE FOR ME, AND IT IS NOT HIM.”

MY ENTIRE BODY RELAXED, I AM AT PEACE WITH IT ALL; AND ALTHOGUH MY HIGHEST DESIRE IS FOR LOVE; IT IS FOR THE REAL LOVE; WHERE THE MAN IS WILLING TO EXTEND BEYOND HIMSELF, TO BECOME A BETTER MAN FOR HIS WOMAN, TO GROWN IN COURAGE AND IN STRENGTH, THAT HE WOULD GO TO ALL LENGTHS OF THE GLOBE FOR HIS LOVE; I AM WORTHY OF THAT MAN, AND ALTHOUGH HE MAY NOT WALK INTO MY LIFE TOMORROW, I WILL NOT SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN THAT MAN.