It's pretty hilarious looking back on my journey with this Man; this man that has loved me so completely, filled me with his essence, falling into the trap of love. I opened up the red carpet of my heart only to see a giant steam roller headed straight for me at 80 miles an hour. I was hit-hard. And amongst the crash, I couldn't imagine a way out, I could only feel the string of emotions plummeting through my soul. I had to let him go; every ounce, every concept.
I awoke every morning with his Name hitting me over the head, he was always the first thought that arose, letting me know that I was no longer dreaming. But I did it; I released him to the Mystery of the Cosmos, and we both knew that we would rediscover what was real; if any of it was real, out in the dusty desert of Black Rock City. We took our puzzle out to Burningman, to throw ourselves in the fire and discover what was beneath the illusion of our bodily sheathes.
I met him for coffee, the Sunday I left for the Playa, a nervous but excited wreck I was, but I always cherish a chance of being in His presence. I arrived at Coffee Bean 10 minutes before him, which gave me enough time to order my tea, and while adding sweetener to my drink I heard a man's loving voice laughing with a child. I though to myself how charming; and it was him, playing with his young niece, laughing and shaking his hands in her hair. There is nothing more attractive then seeing a man connect with a child; to see his love glowing out of him and extending it to his family. I almost died right there; this is the man I covet, always somehow roping my heart back into his.
He ordered his cappuccino and we sat at a table outside, to reconcile, to discuss, mostly I just listen to his imagination. His mind never stops, his charm always working on me, the laughter exchange between us...we have a friendly connection. We make plans to meet on the playa at 5pm on Tuesday, that he will find me at my camp. I can't wait for the moment. After an hour he lets me go in the parking lot, licks my neck and bites me with his teeth, and sends my whole body in a whirl spin. I usually have to beg my lovers to bite me like he does; and he just knows, he just is that physical prowess I yearn for so deeply.
We part ways and I finish packing, making my 14 hour journey to the Playa north of Reno, Nevada from LA. My friends and I arrive at 6am, off of no sleep, and we set up camp for the next 4 hours, and I decide to take my first bicycle ride out of camp; I connect with 6 other friends, and we set out for Champagne and beats. The playa magic begins; laughter, dancing, silliness, drunken flirtation with the boys and wet laughter ensues; the party doesn't stop for an entire week.
My Lover Man doesn't find me until Wednesday; he kept knocking on my door while I was sleeping the the trailer next door with my new Playa Crush; yup Burningman is that brutal; you have to take what you can get in every moment, because that's how synchronicity works! I explain to my new crush, Mercury, that this is only temporary, that my lover is looking for me, and I have to reconnect with him.
He finds me finally at 7pm Wednesday night after leaving a note on my trailer. We have a long awaited date in the dust. He's already tired and exhausted from the journey, but we decide to dose up with magical substances and party across the Playa. We have our first night together in almost 2 months, and honestly I don't really care what we're doing, I only care that we're together again.
I awoke every morning with his Name hitting me over the head, he was always the first thought that arose, letting me know that I was no longer dreaming. But I did it; I released him to the Mystery of the Cosmos, and we both knew that we would rediscover what was real; if any of it was real, out in the dusty desert of Black Rock City. We took our puzzle out to Burningman, to throw ourselves in the fire and discover what was beneath the illusion of our bodily sheathes.
I met him for coffee, the Sunday I left for the Playa, a nervous but excited wreck I was, but I always cherish a chance of being in His presence. I arrived at Coffee Bean 10 minutes before him, which gave me enough time to order my tea, and while adding sweetener to my drink I heard a man's loving voice laughing with a child. I though to myself how charming; and it was him, playing with his young niece, laughing and shaking his hands in her hair. There is nothing more attractive then seeing a man connect with a child; to see his love glowing out of him and extending it to his family. I almost died right there; this is the man I covet, always somehow roping my heart back into his.
He ordered his cappuccino and we sat at a table outside, to reconcile, to discuss, mostly I just listen to his imagination. His mind never stops, his charm always working on me, the laughter exchange between us...we have a friendly connection. We make plans to meet on the playa at 5pm on Tuesday, that he will find me at my camp. I can't wait for the moment. After an hour he lets me go in the parking lot, licks my neck and bites me with his teeth, and sends my whole body in a whirl spin. I usually have to beg my lovers to bite me like he does; and he just knows, he just is that physical prowess I yearn for so deeply.
My Lover Man doesn't find me until Wednesday; he kept knocking on my door while I was sleeping the the trailer next door with my new Playa Crush; yup Burningman is that brutal; you have to take what you can get in every moment, because that's how synchronicity works! I explain to my new crush, Mercury, that this is only temporary, that my lover is looking for me, and I have to reconnect with him.
He finds me finally at 7pm Wednesday night after leaving a note on my trailer. We have a long awaited date in the dust. He's already tired and exhausted from the journey, but we decide to dose up with magical substances and party across the Playa. We have our first night together in almost 2 months, and honestly I don't really care what we're doing, I only care that we're together again.
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